It's Almost Been A Year

I haven't been on this thing for awhile... Time to update!

Someone wise somewhere some place once said that history repeats itself, and for sure, it does...

around 7 months ago, I met this girl. She had been in a relationship for 3+ years and recently ended it all after many a complications. We started talking a lot about life, religion, and Jesus. Oddly, it was pretty good for the first half of summer. It was freaking awesome understanding the crazy ways Jesus had been working in our lives and what we aspired to become to pursue futures involving his ministry. Eventually though, we started showing signs more than just mere friendship. A month of kinda dating (I say kinda because it was really dumb at the time) happened. However, I didn't know at the time (I lack a lot of knowledge about relationships) that I was just a rebound. I couldn't deal with the sin done against me anymore and ended it entirely.

7 months later, a similar situation occurs. I didn't know how to deal with it at first, but I'm learning that the failures of 7 months ago really shaped the decisions that I'm making right now. I lost a potential friend 7 months ago, and I don't want to let that happen again.

But dealing with the various emotions, confusion, and loneliness have been some of the hardest experiences ever. But with all this suffering, I have learned to go back to the creator. I have felt his redemption and presence through the suffering in my heart as he delivers and comforts me. I am his beloved, and he makes all things work together for my good. I know that in this suffering his presence is here. That this suffering has given me more insight of the human heart and is bringing me closer to the sanctification of his Spirit.

So, because of this new perspective in such a similar situation, I ask for forgiveness. I'm sorry I was not wiser 7 months ago and allowed my flesh to get the better of me. I ask that you could give me mercy and grace only given from love and compassion.

And to right now, through all the miscommunication and pain, I hope we can be good friends again and look back at all this in 4 years and laugh at how comical everything was.

God, I have faith knowing that you can restore all these relationships. That in the end of the trials and suffering, your name will be praised. That you, my God, will receive all glory and honor. Reminding us it was you who delivered us out of slavery in Egypt, sanctified us in the wilderness for 40 years, and defeated the enemy, redeeming us back to the Holy Land. May we rejoice in you.