Rollercoaster Called Life

I've been having weird moments lately where my mind tells me to do something, like this one incident, and I do it. Today it was running on the strand. For some reason, my mind spoke to me, telling me to just go to the beach and run. I told my mom this and of course, like any mother would, yelled at me, saying that my life is not stressful at all, which lit a crazy fuze in my head. I stormed out of the house and tried to ignore it. After the running, push ups, and work outs, I felt really good. I wasn't thinking, which is probably why I'm so depressed all the time. But once I got into the car, once the heart got back into its normal beat, I started getting depressed again. I didn't know what to do, but I'm slowly realizing, of course with the help of others, that ultimately I can't depend on people as a way to vent my emotions for this just ends up me being lame and hating them more. What I decided to do was go to the park and just sit, think about stuff and question God abot a lot of things I'm feeling.

In the end this is what I came up with. As a person, I am a pretty emotional guy. The things I feel, the emotions I express, and the way I carry myself seems to be pretty extreme, or in other words, I'm bipolar. When I am happy, I am insanely estatic, yet when I'm sad, I feel like punching someone and knocking them to the floor. Today, I was exercising. This sudden release of endorphins helped me feel elated, but once I got into that car, my body fell into withdrawal. In the bigger picture it's like this.... Physics states that for every action there's an equal yet opposite reaction. This depression I'm going through just happened to be that gravitational force pulling me down, yet there's the normal force just waiting to push me back up. This is just a moment, a fraction, and a piece of my life. All of this will pass, and I will move on. Although I may feel hopeless, worthless, and absoutely meaningless, God will provide. "Narrow and windy is the road to Heaven." The ups, downs, flips, and turns are imminent. I'm riding through this rollercoaster called life.